Junie's Online Thoughts
Thursday, November 07, 2002
Im training Chenise today. Thats nice. Plus, I get to pass the buck with things that I never could before. Ive always been the lowest one on the totem pole. One week. Thats it. Whoo hoo.
Last night at Noodle, I had written that I was going to have a change of attitude. That I have been solely focusing on the negative. That instead I would Release, release, release. That was before Day Six of no hot water and my freezing flurking shower this morning. Then I left a really pissy urgent message on my landlords phone, telling him that I would be calling him later (and every few hours after that) until he fixed it today. That I was sick of acting like we lived on Little House on the Prairie. That we were leaving in 19 days and I wanted to take a shower. Its a little easier to attempt to release now that that's done, but it really cant happen until we have hot water again. Its amazing how not being able to feel clean and warm for six full days really makes me a crabby appleton. grrrrrrrrrr.
So releasing. Yup, thats what Im gonna do. Did it a little bit yesterday at work. Realized that Im just one person and that I dont owe this place anything. Why should I come in on the weekends? Why should I come in so early? The procedures manual (now restored, thanks again Dave) is nearly done and as done as its going to get. The thing is HUGE. Usually when I make these guys they fill a 1 or 1 1/2 inch three ring binder. This is a four inch binder. 80 pages plus about 100 pages of attachments. You know, this place better appreciate me when Im gone. What a resource, you know? Who else would try to capture all of their three years worth of knowledge? Everyone else just runs out the door. What is wrong with me? I thought this place had crushed my work ethic (and spirit) over a year ago.....guess I was wrong on that one.
Wednesday, November 06, 2002
Life is a sinking cesspool, these days. Arent I a positive gal? Lets see.......I had been working on my procedures manual really really hard, right? I was putting every effort into it, trying to include everything I have known over the last three years. I was up to page 78, when our computers crashed and the document was sucked into a computer wasteland. I could see it in my directory, but it wouldnt let me open it. I called our (useless) computer guy, who worked on it for 4-5 hours, then our VP of Finance, who worked on it for 2-4 hours, and neither of them could do a thing about it. They told me there was a 90% chance of it being gone forever. I spent one and a half days crying and gnashing my teeth. Then my friend Dave came back from vacation, and in an hour and with an $80 program, retrieved all of the text from my file. Why do we pay these computer guys if they cant do what Dave can? This place sucks.
In any case, I got my manual back and narrowly escaped yet another nervous breakdown.
Then....our water heater broke. We're on day four of no hot water and I had to boil water for 1/2 an hour yesterday to take a bath. I hate baths. Tepid pools of my own filth. Tuck.
Then....it started raining and the gaping, collapsing hole in our living room ceiling started leaking. It continued to leak all night. Thank goodness for bread pans and mixing bowls to catch the water.
Then....we have a small woodland animal living in our walls. We heard it squeaking and scratching and running behind our heads at 4 am....I thought at first Squeak had caught a mouse, but there were no dead things on the floor. I looked.
Life is great right now. Really great. People wonder why Im so damn bitchy. Its like....my whole life is either crashing around me or thrown up in the air....wouldnt you be a little stressed out too????????
